I will continue with my early church journey in my next post but I need to interject with this letter to all the lovely ladies who are a part of our Girl’s Nights over at King’s Coffee House in Cheltenham.
To all you wonderful women who have been on the Girl’s Night journey with me for the past years. I write to you with a heavy heart but also with much love in my heart for you. We have grown to know each other and love each other and this new season in my life takes me away from you, which is not easy at all. I would like to say that it’s all positive and that you should be happy for me but it’s not such a simple story. For various reasons our family have left our church that we have called home for the past 18 months. Eric has accepted a job at another church and felt that he needed to do this to provide for his family, as being a full time student this past year has made life rather difficult. He had to leave his studies and cannot finish his degree to take this job. I have not joined the church he is working at and seemed to have gone into the wilderness. I found the change very sudden and unexpected and it has thrown me into a place of heartache and confusion. You see, I have learned to love each and every person in our church and feel like my heart has been ripped out. Girl’s Night has been a place where I have been able to connect with you lovely ladies on a deeper level. We have worshipped together, challenged each other, laughed together and cried together.
I want what is best for you all and I don’t feel that I can continue leading you in my current circumstances. As I find myself lost in this wilderness place I realise that this is nowhere to lead people from or to. You must move on as I pass the baton onto someone who is better able to lead you more positively. So please know that I love you all very much and will be thinking of you and praying for you as you meet tomorrow night for Girl’s Night. Please keep me in your prayers too as I keep you in mine.