I was at the gynaecologists’ office joking around about how I have never had this sort of check up in my life. He took some medical history and then asked me to lie down on the examination table. My palms were sweaty and my heart racing a bit as I was dreading what was to come. Pap smears and internal examinations are just not very comfortable and since this was my very first time having a smear I was feeling a bit embarrassed.
To break the ice a bit I thought I would chat about something unusual that I had noticed in my body. When I lay on my back and my bladder was a bit full my lower abdomen seemed to be swollen. Thinking this was just my full bladder I made a casual joke about it and pointed it out as my bladder was getting quite full at the time of this examination. He had a look and remarked that it did seem rather swollen and asked if it would be alright for him to do an ultrasound scan so that he could take a closer look at it. I was thrilled to delay the internal examination so jumped at the opportunity to have the scan!
What happened next was not quite what I expected. The gynaecologist was shocked at what he found saying that he had never seen anything like this before. I could see all sorts of thoughts were running through his mind and when he finally spoke he seemed very worried. All I heard was the part where he said he wasn’t going to do the internal examination and Pap smear today so I was thrilled!The details after that were a bit blurry as everything happened really quickly, emergency surgery was scheduled and fear didn’t really set in until I was at home waiting by the phone for the call that would say that a theatre had been freed up for my surgery.The lump that was discovered was a very large cyst in my womb! It was as about 14cm by 15cm and then still about another 12cm deep. I did look a bit pregnant and there were moments before my visit to the gynaecologist when the thought had crossed my mind that maybe I was.
The reason I said previously that it was a miracle is because the ONLY reason I went for this check up at all was because I was being obedient to what I felt God was telling me to do to lead a depression free life. One of the steps was to go for all my routine check-ups. I had no symptoms that caused me to go for a check-up; I was simply following the process that I believe God was guiding me in. It’s possible that I would not be alive today if I had not had that check-up.
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