Our pastor was very gracious towards us and never put any pressure on us to serve or get involved in church at all. We were allowed time to grieve and get whole again and so we just sat in church Sunday after Sunday with no desire to do anything or speak to anyone. We came, we sat, we listened, we left. One night in a dream God spoke to Eric and told him that he must connect with people at church and so we started to stay afterwards for coffee and a little chat.
King’s Daughters Girl’s Nights was set up at our new church before D7 Church had closed down. It was one of the things that I was passionate about and was what we did to help churches with their women’s ministries. Where they had nothing in place we would offer to set up a King’s Daughters for them at their church. So I was involved in ministry already and had connected with many of the ladies through King’s Daughters. Somehow, despite all that we had gone through I managed to keep going with King’s Daughters. Sadly most Tuesday nights all I could muster was dragging myself there, often without makeup on or any enthusiasm at all. I don’t know how I did it, only God knows, but he used the empty shell of a vessel to someone still pour out into these precious ladies. My heart wasn’t in it but I was sincere in my leadership and did my absolute best for the ladies. The anti-depressants did help for a while and kept me going. Looking back I do wonder if it wasn’t really damaging to take the anti-depressants as they allowed me to continue to lead on empty when I probably shouldn’t have been leading at all.
Thankfully, when I prayed about my year towards the end of 2015 I felt God saying that 2016 would be a year of rest for King’s Daughters. That I was not to do our annual conference and that until I heard further instructions from him I was to do nothing in this ministry but rest. So I committed to spending the year praying and investing in the people not the ministry. It was our seventh year as a ministry so it made perfect sense to have a rest year! Girl’s Nights continued but I didn’t build or plant anything new. God knew what was to come in 2016..